Just came home, took a bath, saw your msg but i guess u fell asleep already, cos i tried to call u. Suddenly, i just miss you so much, wanted so much to hear your voice and feel your embrace...being alone suddenly felt so bad. And to know you had sleep on the floor so your little cousins could sleep on the mattress, i wish you came here instead.
If there's something i really hate about studying, its that it takes me apart from those i love, those i would willingly spend every minute of my life loving; how it drains you so much, it leaves you with nothing for those who really matter. Why am i made to prioritise the chase of that paper at the expense of every minute i could have spend loving those ard me?
Knowing doesn't really do you much good sometimes. It makes you look at people differently (humans are judgmental). But at the same time, it makes you see just how lucky you are, to be so sheltered, to have the exact opposite. And it makes you thankful. I am. I am very thankful i fell for a man who would never put me in a disadvantaged position, a man who clearly loves me as much as i do him, a man who isn't just devoted to me, but to others whom he loves and cares for as well, a man who puts me and others above himself. I do not have the wealthiest boyfriend, but i have what most people don't, a virtuous and faithful lover.
I love you mollie.
