Sorry baby, for taking it all out on you when it really isn't your fault at all. you didn't hurt me, you didn't upset me, you just wanted to talk to me, to cheer me up like you always would and i just keep on ranting at you, saying you don't understand me and how i feel but you do, you're the person who does so, the most. out of all the sorrys are just even more sorrys. and i just miss you so much.
and when you left after lunch today, seeing you walking off to go back to work, it only made me feel more lonely than ever; it brought me back to the very reason why i was upset. but i really do appreciate it, appreciate the fact that you made the effort to meet me for lunch, just to spend a little more time with me so i wouldn't dwell so much on it. it was just an hour but i truly felt happy.
when things happen, the only place i want to be is right beside you, where i'd feel safe and protected(so much for not needing your protection. its the only place i won't get judged. its the only place i feel truly loved for what i am and not what people want me to be. its the only place my tears will get dried by you, my pain can be felt by you. and its only beside you.
don't want to ask, don't even want to let things be explained or words to be taken back. its pointless. just let it be. heck i don't even want to explain myself cos there's no point trying. its been laid out so clearly, there's no need to ask for clarifications. just let it be and let the wound be there, let it never heal, let me never forget; i just DON'T WANT to do anything about it. just let it be and let me be.
i was determined to stay but maybe i should just leave.
