This is the day you told me we should talk tomorrow because you're tired. But this was also the day i felt sad and just wanted someone to talk to and i always thought i could count on you to be there.
This is one of the many days where i actually feel that being with you makes me feel bad about myself 'cos everytime we quarrel it seems almost as if it is always my fault, my fault for losing my temper, my fault for being naughty. When two people are together, aren't they supposed to make each other feel good about themselves?
This is the day i actually feel like i shouldn't count on you so much 'cos you can't always be here and you won't always be here. Yet it still feels sad to have to do so.
And i hope this day will pass, soon. Cos all i feel is an empty but heavy heart. How is that even possible?
But this is also the day that i told myself, i must never forget how much my family means to me and i should always put my family first and above all things. Because i've seen how my dad humbly gave his life to us and i know i can never repay him for all that he has done for me.
And i hope that what they say is true, that good people will eventually be rewarded with good things. Cos daddy is the best person i've ever known and if he doesn't get the good things, i don't know what else to believe in already.
